Self love comes in many forms but one of the ways is knowing when you need to let go of habits that aid in your downfall. You know what is best for you; you get daily signs, it just about putting it into practice.
I hope that you get there in your journey. Your future self is waiting to start walking along that purpose driven path. Don’t be afraid to heal because healing looks good on you.
Focusing on the past is a waste of time, unless you have a time travel machine to fix the situation. Look at what’s happening now and sort things out. There will be light at the end of the tunnel if you are willing to be patient enough to keep existing in faith to see it.
There are so many times I wanted to be deeply honest and share everything, but I held back because I knew a few people who followed the blog. It’s weird, but I feel more comfortable revealing myself to strangers than the people I know. It’s a bizarre concept, but I realised it stemmed from my childhood. I never trusted many people because I was disappointed regularly. Growing up with constant disappointments set my expectation low, and in turn, would eagerly believe anyone who appeared genuine even when that wasn’t the case. I found myself in a continuous cycle of trust, disappointment, repeat:
Why was it so easy to trust?
Did I long for someone to protect me?
Was I incredibly naive?
Did I just choose to see the good in people?
I also realised I shy away from opening up because I fear getting ridiculed to the point where my spirits would be broken, and I would just stop writing altogether. Hard to believe that even at my age, I still get overwhelmed with insecurities; one thing that is different now is that I try to focus on the people that would commend me for speaking out. I think it’s time to make the positive encounters paramount because I’m already bombarded with so many pollutants.
Being at home has forced me to be more honest with myself, so I will continue to give me.
No matter how crazy you think life is, you are absolutely making it work. You get up every day to power through with a brave face. You seem to be able to figure out what needs to be done even though it seems daunting. With all the challenges, you seem to be working through it.
You are organising your life through all of that and you should be proud of that accomplishment. It is time to stop comparing yourself with others and work on outdoing your past self. We need more beings dedicated to the cause of self love and finding one’s purpose. You got this and don’t you forget that.
It’s time to ignore the voice in your head that has been telling you not to do it. This is usually coming from a place of fear. What do you really have to lose IF you try something new? Take a chance and just do it; the hard part will be over.
With all the uncertainty happening in the world, panic seems to be the only logical thing to do. But in panicking, you cloud your mind with fear and it becomes harder to receive the message. With all the crazy, you need to constantly be grateful because in focusing on the positives, calm rushes within you.
As you go throughout your day don’t forget to repeat the words and practice it. Be safe and remember the need to be positive in your lives.
As part of my morning routine, I wake up, pray and meditate. As that became an integral part of my day I realised I became more grounded and had a clear sense of what I wanted to do. Ideas and thoughts came more freely and I had escape creativity constipation.
As I went about my day last week, this thought came into my head of what I should do next. I instantly thought it was a great idea because it allowed me to bring more positivity to this space.
With no further ado, I bring to you Affirmation Mondays. I will post an affirmation to help you start your week with good vibrations. These will be picked after deep pray and meditation. Do hope you enjoy!
You are gifted with so many talents, it’s time you are believing in that power so that you can do the things you were destined to do! It’s your time, the universe is waiting for you to unleash all that amazingness.
…In Grenada, I reconnected with my father, got the chance to do some significant reflections; which made me learn a lot more about myself, and I finally decided what I wanted to do career wise. After returning from Grenada, I started looking at masters or PhD programmes. I found this school and I knew that it was the school for me (its logo was an owl, I’ll expand in a later post), and coincidently I found a job in analytical chemistry that was 10mins away from where I lived. I applied to both, and I got accepted. Starting school was a bit more complicated as it was impossible to self-fund, but at the 11.9999th hour, things worked out, and I was able to start. During my panic mode for my masters, I started this blog!
I was scared to leave my job but was excited to start this new journey; when I started, it felt like the right decision, and I would be challenged. School felt the same way as well; however, I had a mass panic attack because I had a moment of doubt in myself. Lucky, I spoke to persons, and I felt better about the situation. This made me vow to be consistent with my assignments and review weekly; I stuck to my promise and did great in the first term(kudos to me)! Being at the school also allowed me the opportunity to partake in a workshop geared to helping persons with business ideas (for free).
During this year:
I’ve met some fantastic people who called me out for enabling some shit;
I realised that I should be around people/things that brought me joy. As a result, some interactions ended as quickly as it started;
I realised that Christmas isn’t my thing so for upcoming years I would prefer to volunteer somewhere than getting fat during a meal;
I will make more time for the people that are important to me;
I’m way too talented to settle for any mediocrity in any aspect of my life.
The year brought about a shift from desiring the things I wanted most in my life to receiving them and made me proud to be my quirky self. I was brave enough to accomplish a lot and committed enough to keep working to maintain that standard. I am ready for what 2020 has to offer, and I am genuinely prepared to accept the greatness I am meant to accomplish.
I worried that my blog wouldn’t impact anyone because I thought my journey was insignificant. Boy was I wrong; I was letting all the fears get in the way of my passion. From posting, I realised that I was relatable because I was brave enough to share my stories and people starting opening up about their stuff.
When I first started my blog, I had three goals in mind:
Accomplishing my goal of consistency
Sharing my story through different mediums
Following my passion for writing
Believe it or not, this is my second attempt at a blog. When I started, I wrote so that I could work through the stuff that was going on in my life. I have to say it did help me through the valleys and built my confidence in my writing. When I wrote, the words flowed so freely. However, when I forced myself to produce specific content every day, my brain froze because that was too much pressure.
With this experience, I learnt something new about myself: If my heart is not with it, the flow of creativity will die. I also discovered that I need to give myself time to heal before I jump into something big. I used the platform as my therapy, and that was great. I was able to write without judgements. Publishing my work was a big thing for me because I was an INTROVERT! You should know the seriousness of this by the bold and ALL CAPS.
Version 1 allowed me to heal, and I’ve done that so well. Version 2 is for manifesting, making and releasing magic. Some days the magic won’t be constant, but I promise you, THERE WILL BE MAGIC. I’m happy you believe in me as much as I believe in myself.
Being aware that there are burdens in your life is one thing, but actively trying to get rid of those burdens is another thing. No one is expected to get rid of all their problems overnight, but working on a challenge each night does add up. I started following blogs that addressed the issue of breaking generational curses. When I first started looking into this, it was a shock to find how most things that I grew up doing were NOT OK. Those beliefs and traits had a profound impact on my life today.
If you change your environment, you can change your mindset. I was able to change the people I followed on social media, the conversations I had, and the activities I did in my free time. Removing nonproductive activities allowed me to face the fact that I harboured too many unnecessary feelings. Combing through those feelings gave me clarity about aspects of my life, which needed growth.
Doing introspections make you aware of the good, bad and ugly parts. Maintaining the positive elements seem relatively straightforward, but enhancing them takes a conscious effect. Letting go of your negative attributes takes some reprogramming, which is fundamentally changing the person you are currently. That part was a battle, but it took some time to accomplish with patience and consistency being my closest frenemy.
I began praying and meditating more. I felt so grounded being able to spend time in quiet, surrounded by nature. I would get so much clarity, and solving problems became easier. Plus, I connected with my intuition, so when something felt right or vice versa, I listened. Every time I meditated or prayed, I remember the verse, “Be still and know that I am God.” Finding the time to take a break from all the distractions resets my body to its best self.
I started consistently eating healthy. This made so much difference because I felt this release from my body. I love the way I felt; my face started to glow and was happy even though I went through challenges. I worked on gathering knowledge, i.e. reading books, watching/listening documentaries, podcasts etc. My goal for the day was to learn at least one new piece of information. All of these things gave me the confidence I needed to change my thought patterns and receive my blessings. Now I write down my goals and having daily affirmations. I started each day with “I am + something positive.” I repeat this process each day to change my mindset. It has been a few months, and there is a definite shift in my life.