I committed myself to address the stuff that keeps holding me back from flourishing. It turns out once I started, there were so many things that I learnt about myself. I started thinking a lot more about my toxic and positive traits. I realise I’m a beautiful soul just confused by everything that happens around me. I feel so much that it becomes too much to process, and I shut down. I have to come to notice that the entire universe responds through stimuli, a feeling. Embracing this and implementing it has been one of the most significant steps in my life.
I made it a goal to learn something new every day, and I have committed to continuing this goal. I had learned things that brought me joy, sadness, disgust, bewilderment; so many emotions I discovered when I took the step to leave my comfort zone. I always hear that ignorance is bliss, but I always say that it is dangerous. How is it blissful to not feed your mind and continue living without the knowledge that is produced daily for us. The world is rapidly growing, how can people not want to be apart of that community. It is not wrong to learn; you were designed to function that way. There is a shift from learning for physical survival to mental survival. Take the time to acquire a new piece of information to grow your mind; you’ll be glad you did.
Down the rabbit hole, I go, further away from my sense of normal my sense of adventure pushes me down also, but my fear pulls me back I’m being torn between two worlds, and it’s so confusing I have been told that no one can serve two masters and I see that now I want to serve the master of mystery, but I’m tethered to my fears and insecurities I want to let go, but the temptation of normalcy intrigues me The desire to reminisce on the simpler times distracts me from continuing There is no reason for me to go back now as my mind has slowly metamorphosised I will no longer be able to experience the bliss of ignorance fully I will no longer be comfortable just existing I’ve asked for these things and been refusing to accept them because it doesn’t follow the path I want I need to realise that the level of confusion is bearable and I need to face the truth to obtain clarity Now faced with the choice; do I fully immerse myself in the truth or be aware of tidbits? I am stuck between choosing I’m stuck between existences as my life has revolved around this theme recently I am the only one that can decide I have made decisions before, but somehow I’m stuck I need to analyse all aspects so that I can continue with my life.
I’ve been a bit preoccupied and forgot to post but I feel I need to do it for the sake of consistency. I am a firm believer that you need to water the things that are important to you. So here goes….
If we could control every detail of our lives we would soon realise that we would be in lots of trouble for we don’t know our true purpose in life. We would go around making decisions and tweaking existing decisions so it will fit our present existence. This may be good for our present self, but what about our future self?
I’ve realised that we need to fail at things in order to get back on the path we are destined to travel. It’s okay when things are going crazy, it means that things are going to smooth itself out soon, you just have to start preparing yourself for the next step in your life.
I’ve completely resonated with experience that it why I can speak so wholeheartedly. Patience and trusting aren’t my strongest qualities, but I am working on it for my sanity. I am mentally preparing myself for the blessings you will received. I do hope you are doing the same.
At some point in our lives, we have all felt sad. Sadness is an essential part of our lives because it reminds us of the need to be humble and offers a reference point for happy aspects of our lives. With sadness being an essential part of our lives, when does it become a problem? To me, it becomes a problem when the sadness lingers to the point where you lose interest in daily activities and leaving your bed becomes a physical battle.
I experienced this feeling growing up, but I never felt comfortable talking about it. I didn’t know how to start or who to speak to about the issue. I wanted to talk about it, but I feared being shunned or told to pray vigorously about it. I am a firm believer in prayers, but prayers without action wouldn’t benefit me, and I felt so lost. I also feared speaking out because expressing emotions wasn’t a common practice, so I didn’t want to be classed as an outsider.
I realised later that this trait, of not talking, was due to a coping mechanism brought about by the effects of slavery and colonialism. Before, I just thought it was reasonable to hold on to my feelings and let is damage me. I figured it was best to suppress it. That didn’t work because now as I get older, I saw my character developing from coping mechanisms based on my experiences. I thought about too many “what ifs” and hoped my life had gravitated differently. I’m now working on ensuring that my feelings are dealt with properly to prevent subsequent effects.
When talking to others about my experiences, I realised that others shared similar situations but are also afraid to speak about it. I’m so baffled that an issue so prevalent is not openly discussed. I believe it is crucial to remove the stigma related to sadness and depression. With May designated as Mental Health Awareness month, individuals are working to ensure this is normalised.
Our minds crave familiarity; it requires more energy to obtain new information, and thus it is considered unfavourable. When absorbing new experiences, the brain has to forge new pathways to store the memory. During this time, our minds are experiencing information overload and trying hard to make sense of this new “normal.” For those who are surrounded by family, you are lucky to have a constant reminder to help you adjust. For those with jobs, you have an opportunity to occupy yourself during this change. These times are so uncertain, but I believe we are resilient. There have been times where mass populations have encountered wounds and have eventually healed. We will not go back to our old existence, but we will find a way to coexist naturally again.
I know may not have much to worry about but it’s always good to think about these thing. I saw this post by New Lune and it reminded me about the importance of internet safety. I show so much parts of myself and don’t think twice about cause I think it will never happen to me. I don’t what could happen so I’m making the extra effort.
I was on IG, and I saw this post which said the following:
This post was a reminder of all the beautiful things I currently have in my life; I am healthy and happy. I have friends and family that I can count on no matter the circumstance. I have a job, a home, I can be creative, and spread joy. I have been surrounded by so many opportunities to improve myself. Every morning I go through my blessings, and I notice the list grows each week. I am fortunate to exist in a space where I don’t have to worry about basic needs and can move and speak freely. There are many things I’m unsure about in life but being blessed isn’t one of those things.
Is quiting an option anymore? What do you really gain from it? Keep pushing, you got this!! Delayed gratification is so much sweeter when everything aligns together. Whenever you feel like quiting, ask yourself this, “will my future self benefit from this decision?”
Unplugging and taking quiet time is the best gift you can give yourself. Refusing to succumb to the pull of the internet removes the cloud that confuses ones’ purpose. Just imagine in a typical day; you wake up with a list of goals you want to accomplish, but somehow the first thing you do is look at the updates on your phone and at this point, your focus shifts from taking care of your goals to fixating on trends. Then as you go throughout your day, during your commute and work, you sneak in moments where you “need” to answer a message or look at a post.
This occurrence becomes embedded in your daily lives to the point where feeding the addiction displaces accomplishing goals. Then, there comes the point where you have lost sight of who you are as a person. This displacement is real and dangerous; the addiction grows slowly and steadily while distracting its host into some alternate reality. The good news is that this addiction is reversible. The same way you convinced yourself to scroll through social media is the same way you can persuade yourself to close the application. Believe it or not, your world will not shatter if you don’t look at the trends multiple times a day.
Take some time during the day to turn off your phone and direct your attention to some other aspect of your life.
Go outside and rediscover nature; with the rapid consumption of technology, humans have strayed away from the divine cycle of the universe. The use of content has become more critical than self-care. Go outside and learn to re-appreciate the beauty and calming effects of nature.
Take the time to reflect on your past and present so that you can create targets for your future.
Try consuming as little artificial light as possible; the presence of artificial life affects the hormonal balance in the body.
Try Adopting early sleep and wake times; resting between the recommended hours does help holistically and waking up early allows you to accomplish some personal goals before you have to go into work.
It’s time to start focusing on your definition of success rather than “the definition” of success. No two person’s journey is the same, therefore comparing yourself to others won’t help you grow as a person. The only comparison that is allowed is the one with your prior and present versions.
Celebrate all the mini wins along the way to that big goal. It is possible to be your best self and keep the consistency that comes with levelling up. There may be times where you don’t receive a favourable outcome, i.e. “failing”, but learning from the situation facilitates growth. Please, don’t be hard on yourself. You are successful; it you don’t believe it, ask your friends to remind you.
Hope you have a great week and remember to let go of the things that no longer serve your purpose.
Focusing on the past is a waste of time, unless you have a time travel machine to fix the situation. Look at what’s happening now and sort things out. There will be light at the end of the tunnel if you are willing to be patient enough to keep existing in faith to see it.
Why is it so easy to focus on the bad things that happened or can happen as opposed to looking at the one good thing that resulted? Are we inherently hardwired to focus on the bad? With the current situation, we think about how we can’t pay our bills or go outside, but we don’t dwell on the fact that we are alive and we got this opportunity to rest, recuperate and realign ourselves with our purpose.
WHAT ABOUT YOUR:
We are guilty of forgetting these things because we have become slaves of the world. Everything that is happening is a reminder that we focused on the wrong things, and that our reality is apart of the social construct designed to keep us oppressed. Take this time to stay home and interact with your family without the aid of technology. Let us try to retain some form of our humanity. Let’s show the other species that we have different emotions aside from hate. Let us focus on caring for others and continue to maintain the positivity. Let us shift the energy to get us through this time.
I am blessed to have people in my circle that truly care about my wellbeing. They keep in touch often and offer a helping hand or listening ear when I have rough patches. My life is so much more meaningful with these positive influences in my life.
I hope you take the time today to reflect on the people who care about you no matter what. Life is more worthy when you have people who bring joy in your life.
There are so many times I wanted to be deeply honest and share everything, but I held back because I knew a few people who followed the blog. It’s weird, but I feel more comfortable revealing myself to strangers than the people I know. It’s a bizarre concept, but I realised it stemmed from my childhood. I never trusted many people because I was disappointed regularly. Growing up with constant disappointments set my expectation low, and in turn, would eagerly believe anyone who appeared genuine even when that wasn’t the case. I found myself in a continuous cycle of trust, disappointment, repeat:
Why was it so easy to trust?
Did I long for someone to protect me?
Was I incredibly naive?
Did I just choose to see the good in people?
I also realised I shy away from opening up because I fear getting ridiculed to the point where my spirits would be broken, and I would just stop writing altogether. Hard to believe that even at my age, I still get overwhelmed with insecurities; one thing that is different now is that I try to focus on the people that would commend me for speaking out. I think it’s time to make the positive encounters paramount because I’m already bombarded with so many pollutants.
Being at home has forced me to be more honest with myself, so I will continue to give me.
Today I did something I wanted to do for months now, which was to incorporate a vlogfessions portion to blogfessions. The idea came, and I dismissed it because I was a bit nervous about showing too much of myself. But, with all that is happening, it was time to do something I have always wanted to do. At this point, I have nothing to lose but the fear that is holding me back. So take it from me; take a chance on yourself to become a better version than before. Your future self is waiting! Hope you enjoy the first of many videos!
Is life making you busy or you are using LIFE as an excuse not to do the things you need to do?
I made an effort to start this blog, and I was consistent with semi-regular postings. When things became a bit more demanding but still manageable, I rode that busy train to the point where I didn’t post anything for two weeks. I did, however, find time to scroll through Instagram in the name of clearing my head. I was allowing this sluggish nature to get the best of me; it’s fun to stay in bed sleeping and scrolling through social media, but I needed to do right by myself and develop.
It may be hard to believe, but you are meant for something more than mediocrity. Scrolling through social media, watching others impact change is more than what you were put on the earth to do. If you think you have no idea what you are meant to do in this life, you are wrong. You know it, it’s been hovering around you since the beginning. It’s time to focus your energy on letting this become apparent to you. Now is the perfect time to do it because you are at home and streaming tv is becoming a bit tired. If you are like me and avoided connecting with yourself because it was too hard, take a chance on yourself.
Start small; find out things about yourself by challenging your thinking. One thing I started doing was writing challenges. The complexity of these challenges pulled me out of my comfort zone and made me ok with being vulnerable.
During this time of isolation, learn more about yourself to resume the growth process. You are fantastic and complex; it’s time to unlock that door to find out your potential.
It’s been two months since the beginning of the year and it’s time to check in:
How have you been?
Is your (mental, physical, spiritual, emotional) health ok?
Have you been saying your positive affirmations?
Have you been remaining positive?
Have you been accomplishing the goals you have set for yourself?
Have you been consistent with your objectives?
Have you been blessing the world with your magic?
Have you been loving yourself wholeheartedly?
Have you been tuning out the negativity?
Kudos to you if you have. I’m happy that you know your worth and you’re willing to maintain that level of consistency. I know there are days when curling up in a ball is the easiest thing, but you choose to go out there to shine bright. Remember you inspire people, so go out there and be that boss.
If you haven’t, there is still time to be your best self. You don’t have to wait until the end of the year, you can do it at any time with the right mindset. If you don’t feel like you are being pushed in that direction, it’s time to change your environment. Everyone is tasked to find their purpose in life; the longer you wait by engaging in distractions the further you are from your happiness. So do better and be better for your future self, success is waiting to be intimately acquainted with you. Sending positivity your way!
YOU ARE MAGIC. YOU BELONG. YOU ARE WORTHY. Let those words be engrained in your mind until you believe it wholeheartedly! Don’t let the words of people who don’t know you stop you from becoming who you are meant to be.
At the tender age of six, Ruby Bridges advanced the cause of civil rights in November 1960 when she became the first African American student to integrate an elementary school in the South.
Born on September 8, 1954, Bridges was the oldest of five children for Lucille and Abon Bridges, farmers in Tylertown, Mississippi. When Ruby was two years old, her parents moved their family to New Orleans, Louisiana in search of better work opportunities.
Ruby and her mother were escorted by four federal marshals to the school every day that year. She walked past crowds screaming vicious slurs at her. Undeterred, she later said she only became frightened when she saw a woman holding a black baby doll in a coffin. She spent her first day in the principal’s office due to the chaos created as angry white parents pulled their children from school. Many parents withdrew their children permanently. Ruby ate lunch alone and sometimes played with her teacher at recess, but she never missed a day of school that year.
So many times we say things about ourselves that are so demeaning, and we wonder why things are so unfavourable for us. We put negative energy in the world to multiply and follow us. Even if it’s a joke; the words are still released in the same way. It’s one of the reasons you are to blame for your misfortunes. Be kind to yourself; praise yourself for all the things you have accomplished. You are terrific, and it is time you realise the impact your presence has on the universe.
The negative energy also applies when you say things about others as well. These words may be rooted in a place of jealousy, self-disappointment, anger, conditioning, etc. Everyone goes through their insecurities, and it never helps when you say (hear) something horrible about someone else (yourself) even if it’s a joke. I was talking to someone, and they said that they get bullied on their looks, and it was meant to be a joke. They said they were used to it and I had to remind them that it was not okay even if it was normalised.
Be kind to others; they are as valuable to the universe as you are, and their impact does shape the world as you know it. Words are so powerful that they can uplift or break a person down, which can change the course of their lives in the future. Words are misused so frequently cause we never take the time to understand its origins and potential impact. Challenge yourself to spread positivity with your power for you are powerful creatures.
Have you ever wondered why certain words are spelt or pronounced the way they are even though it doesn’t seem logical? I was often confused as well until I stumbled on a lecture about etymology. Etymology is the study of the origin of words and how their meanings have changed throughout history.
I found this fascinating as it was revealed to me that English is a mix of other languages with “English pronunciations” and these words are rooted in primarily Greek and Latin words, and these Greek and Latin words were probably rooted in some ancient language and the cycle continues. Every time I found a word, I would search; at times it was clear, but other times I was sent down the rabbit hole to find the “original” meaning.
One word that had me more aware than ever was the word “spelling.” When I did my research, I saw lots of videos that said that this word is rooted in the word spells. When words are said negatively, it can purposefully put a curse on someone. This thought brought me back to the phrase “self-fulfilling prophesy”; you repeat something terrible about yourself, and ultimately, it becomes real. On the flip side, when words are said positively, one can essentially bless themselves and attract opportunities. This ties in with the “law of attraction” and “putting things out in the universe” which are quite popular recently. Therefore, when you say “I am…”, you are bringing blessings to yourself and attracting opportunities.