#thursdaythoughts04062020

“Self love is the best love”

Self love comes in many forms but one of the ways is knowing when you need to let go of habits that aid in your downfall. You know what is best for you; you get daily signs, it just about putting it into practice.

I hope that you get there in your journey. Your future self is waiting to start walking along that purpose driven path. Don’t be afraid to heal because healing looks good on you.

Beatus Manifestationes,
Nomadic Free Spirit

Spring Cleaning

There are so many times I wanted to be deeply honest and share everything, but I held back because I knew a few people who followed the blog. It’s weird, but I feel more comfortable revealing myself to strangers than the people I know. It’s a bizarre concept, but I realised it stemmed from my childhood. I never trusted many people because I was disappointed regularly. Growing up with constant disappointments set my expectation low, and in turn, would eagerly believe anyone who appeared genuine even when that wasn’t the case. I found myself in a continuous cycle of trust, disappointment, repeat:

  • Why was it so easy to trust?
  • Did I long for someone to protect me?
  • Was I incredibly naive?
  • Did I just choose to see the good in people?

I also realised I shy away from opening up because I fear getting ridiculed to the point where my spirits would be broken, and I would just stop writing altogether. Hard to believe that even at my age, I still get overwhelmed with insecurities; one thing that is different now is that I try to focus on the people that would commend me for speaking out. I think it’s time to make the positive encounters paramount because I’m already bombarded with so many pollutants.

Being at home has forced me to be more honest with myself, so I will continue to give me.

Beatus Manifestationes,
Nomadic Free Spirit🦋 🦉

I think It’s Time

I love you so I think you need to hear this:

I’m tired of giving so much of myself with little to no appreciation.

I’m tired of having to constantly listen without you acknowledging

the impact of your negativity.

There comes a time in your life when you need to realise that your

choices not only affects you, but those directly in your circle.

Your naivety is restricting access to your common sense.

I pray that you will let go of the negative patterns you learnt as a child.

You accept that the things you encounter are a direct result of the energy

you bring.

I try to be there for you without thought, but you are draining me.

I can feel your discord from the time I hold my phone.

I know that you are lonely but you can never be alone if you make peace

with yourself.

It’s not that hard if you make the effort, but you need at try.

 It’s not me, it’s you.

Until you realise it’s you,

you will always consider yourself to be Atlas.

Pax et Felicitatem,
Nomadic Mind Wanderer