Down the Rabbit Hole

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It’s been a while since I’ve posted a poem even though I am still continuing with the poetry challenge. Here is the last poem I’ve posted:
http://nmwblog.com/2020/02/04/my-poetry-challenge/

So Here goes…

Down the rabbit hole, I go, further away from my sense of normal
my sense of adventure pushes me down also, but my fear pulls me back
I’m being torn between two worlds, and it’s so confusing
I have been told that no one can serve two masters and I see that now
I want to serve the master of mystery, but I’m tethered to my fears and insecurities
I want to let go, but the temptation of normalcy intrigues me
The desire to reminisce on the simpler times distracts me from continuing
There is no reason for me to go back now as my mind has slowly metamorphosised
I will no longer be able to experience the bliss of ignorance fully
I will no longer be comfortable just existing
I’ve asked for these things and been refusing to accept them because it doesn’t follow the path I want
I need to realise that the level of confusion is bearable and I need to face the truth to obtain clarity
Now faced with the choice; do I fully immerse myself in the truth or be aware of tidbits?
I am stuck between choosing
I’m stuck between existences as my life has revolved around this theme recently
I am the only one that can decide
I have made decisions before, but somehow I’m stuck
I need to analyse all aspects so that I can continue with my life.

Beatus Manifestationes,
Nomadic Free Spirit