Consistency to a Fault

Last year it finally stuck that consistency brought forth a successful outcome. I accomplished so much and started some of my longstanding goals. It is such a wonderful feeling knowing that I am not broken, just lazy. One day during my meditations, I realised that I have always been consistent; however, it was towards my bad habits.

I was consistent in NOT finishing my goals, holding onto negative emotions (hate, jealousy, anger, resentment, etc.), being lazy, self-doubt, and, the biggest of all, procrastination. I was so loyal to these negative aspects that I never linked it to the fact that it caused my stagnation. It was indeed my experience of Stockholm’s syndrome.

As I see it now, it was easy to be consistent with those traits because it felt safe, it was healthy for me, and I didn’t think I was strong enough to change. Now that I’ve demolished so many barriers since the year of 25, I’ve faced the negative aspects of myself and rewired my brain to understand the importance of being consistent and loyal to the right things.

It was a problematic process changing my mindset as there are so many distractions to revert me. Now that having a persistent mindset is more ingrained within me, it’s harder to go back to square one. I haven’t gotten to where I want to be as yet because it takes lots of self-dedication. However, every day I aim to increase my standards and get to that point. The hardest part was accepting responsibility for my results. Now that I overcame this hump, the journey became more natural for me.

No matter what stage you are in your life, you can get it right if you change your mindset and be consistent with the traits that will allow you to grow holistically.

Pax et Felicitatem,
Nomadic Mind Wanderer

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self doubt can block you from reaching your goals.

The Fear of Wanting More…

May it be a new experience, new love, or job; you always find yourself having butterflies in your stomach mixed in with some anxiety and nervousness. These are all normal feelings for you to experience when trying something different. What’s not acceptable is when the fear becomes too much, and you get scared. Your mind becomes flooded with all the things that could go wrong, which makes you want to run for the hills. All these negative thoughts enter your head, and you get distracted by the what-ifs.

It’s so crazy that you have these intense panic moments in adulthood. What you should focus on are the potential positive outcomes. Growing up, you’ve been through new experiences frequently, but yet you powered through them. I’m sure you had those same feelings, the same fears, the same doubts, but you went forth on that journey anyway. What made you do it? Was it an impulse decision? Did your family/friends prompt you? Did you feel it was an obligation?

If you mainly did because you felt pressured in any way you need to change your mindset. You need to start believing your worth. May it be professionally or otherwise, people keep coming around because you are amazing. Don’t lose sight of this or get distracted by the things you don’t have. You need to remember that in a few months you won’t be in the same position as you are now. Just keep going until you get what you want (consistency, consistency, consistency). Go back to the memories of when you were a child having career goals; channel that energy and remove all the negative attributes from your life, especially your self-doubt.

It’s ok to be scared because we have a self-preservation mechanism. It’s ok to be cautious because it allows us to have an unbiased view of the situation. Your future self will thank you for allowing some growth in your existence. Don’t forget that you are amazing. You are unique! You are enough! You deserve all the things you want; it’s just a matter of figuring out how to get it. You’ve got this, I believe in you!