Affirmation Monday 04052020

I’m sure I’m not the only one that suffers from wanting instant results. I’m guilty of putting in the work but get frustrated when I don’t see the rewards in my timing. Every time I start a new project, this happens; I do the job, and when I don’t get rewarded, I have a breakdown. Then after I have calmed down, I realise that I am not the centre of the universe, and my expectations are unrealistic. As I previously mentioned, this happens EVERY TIME I start something new. Wouldn’t you think that it would become clear to me now? Well apparently not, I think it’s because I am stubborn. Also, I believe the hormones that trick women into wanting more babies are doing the same thing with me and patience. I am working on reminding myself that things take time to mature to tailor to my personal needs. Instant results would not be beneficial for the growth which I want for myself. I’m working on figuring out my wants vs needs before I start desiring results or else those will present itself as another burden. Repeating “I AM PATIENT” calms my soul and reminds me that waiting is one of the rules to being apart of the universe.

Beatus Manifestationes,
Nomadic Free Spirit

Consistency to a Fault

Last year it finally stuck that consistency brought forth a successful outcome. I accomplished so much and started some of my longstanding goals. It is such a wonderful feeling knowing that I am not broken, just lazy. One day during my meditations, I realised that I have always been consistent; however, it was towards my bad habits.

I was consistent in NOT finishing my goals, holding onto negative emotions (hate, jealousy, anger, resentment, etc.), being lazy, self-doubt, and, the biggest of all, procrastination. I was so loyal to these negative aspects that I never linked it to the fact that it caused my stagnation. It was indeed my experience of Stockholm’s syndrome.

As I see it now, it was easy to be consistent with those traits because it felt safe, it was healthy for me, and I didn’t think I was strong enough to change. Now that I’ve demolished so many barriers since the year of 25, I’ve faced the negative aspects of myself and rewired my brain to understand the importance of being consistent and loyal to the right things.

It was a problematic process changing my mindset as there are so many distractions to revert me. Now that having a persistent mindset is more ingrained within me, it’s harder to go back to square one. I haven’t gotten to where I want to be as yet because it takes lots of self-dedication. However, every day I aim to increase my standards and get to that point. The hardest part was accepting responsibility for my results. Now that I overcame this hump, the journey became more natural for me.

No matter what stage you are in your life, you can get it right if you change your mindset and be consistent with the traits that will allow you to grow holistically.

Pax et Felicitatem,
Nomadic Mind Wanderer

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It’s all about consistency!

Pre and Post: Year 25

I didn’t feel like I lived until I turned 25. I was so caught up in my insecurities and listened to other people that I never did want I wanted. I remember distinctively; I wanted to do a queen show. I got the form and filled it out but didn’t submit it because I persuaded not to do it. I also allowed fear to be a significant part of my life. There were so many times I wanted to do something, but I was scared. Then after the event, I would be filled with much regret that I played alternative scenarios my mind.

Then at 25, when the frontal cortex was matured, the lights came on. I was walking one day, and I asked myself “what are you doing?” I realised then I shouldn’t be bothered by what people thought and I should focus on what I wanted. This epiphany was concerning other heartbreaks as well. I guess being hard-headed is beneficial after all. I had to be and do me for my sanity. Now, I’m seasoned in this positivity and life is much better. I’m happier and attracting ambitiously conscious people in my life.

Pre 25 was excellent, but post 25 is much more liberating because I am not phased by the negativity, insecurity or immaturity of others. The colour on the rose-tinted glasses has been lifted, and I can see things for what they are. I learnt it’s all about protecting your energy and keeping people around that will help you grow. It’s hard to say goodbye; but seasons change, creatures evolve and stagnant water produces harm. If you aren’t there yet, start heading in that direction because your future self is waiting to be that beacon of light that shines constantly.

Pax et Felicitatem,
Nomadic Mind Wanderer

Generation Curses 101

During my introspection, the term ‘generational curse’ appeared a lot in my feed. It seemed like an entirely new concept as I couldn’t recall anyone speaking about it growing up. I did my research, but it was quite hard to find a proper definition. Based on what I read, I came up with this explanation.

Generational curses are misfortunes experienced based on negative traits inherited.

I heard the concept growing up. It was used to explain “why a person had a mental defect”, “experienced multiple miscarriages”, “involved in voodoo”, “poverty” or “experienced a karmic event”, to name a few.

I never thought much about it because it didn’t pertain to me. As I got older, I realise I was a victim on a smaller scale. I noticed that I deliberately sabotaged myself because I felt I wasn’t worthy to receive blessings. I often related these events to “not being my time” and continued coasting through life. I didn’t know better because I wasn’t taught better. Finding the root causes to heal was difficult, but I was able to categorise it into nature and nurture based.

Nature-Based:
I found out that descendants of slaves have modifications in how genes are expressed or suppressed in the body. Any trauma experienced by slaves tweaked how genes are regulated. This change can affect an individual on a physical, mental and spiritual level. Since descendants inherit DNA from their ancestors, all descendants acquire the change. This process is called Epigenetics. If you are not a descendant of slaves, the same theory can be applied if you had a traumatic event in your family’s history.

Nurture-Based:
It can also be developed by learning during interactions and observations. For example, if you are taught that your skin tone, body or hair type doesn’t fit a “recommended standard” you will forever try to change yourself. If negative thoughts surround you, you will go through life with a defeated mindset and never allow your light to shine at its brightest.

I’ve spoken to many people who’ve had these experiences. Therefore, I felt the need to write about this topic. The first step in growing is acknowledging that this problem exists.

Pax et Felicitatem,
Nomadic Mind Wanderer